The Silverlining

six years ....
i have no idea how the time flew ....the surge is still the same like it happened yesterday.
the fun , the marriage , the family moment , his wish to keep me with them for one more night , the hreat wreking and the misery that came along.
i could feel the hearbeats , the moment stopped  as his heart.i just could imagine the pain as his eyelids were shut and the whole body was moving as the stroke ...
all i could feel now is emptyness . thats the moment that kept me awake for so many nights ....its not easy to wach someone die ..and be that person your father.
i miss him but the suffeeing has surpassed the threshold so now only i can feel devasteted.
i wann cry out loud ..i wanna have rhe moment of ourburst .beong so away from family and frends ..only i could do was lye down and cry till someone notices ...alas no one did .
i need a shoulder to cry a voice that can console me .
remind me of my father ..
i was just thinking if thats the case with me ..how my mom is holding up ...its hard to be thwre for someone on the call .
nyways life has to move on ...
trrying hard to ......
miss u dad ...hope you are looking out for us ...