The Silverlining

six years ....
i have no idea how the time flew ....the surge is still the same like it happened yesterday.
the fun , the marriage , the family moment , his wish to keep me with them for one more night , the hreat wreking and the misery that came along.
i could feel the hearbeats , the moment stopped  as his heart.i just could imagine the pain as his eyelids were shut and the whole body was moving as the stroke ...
all i could feel now is emptyness . thats the moment that kept me awake for so many nights ....its not easy to wach someone die ..and be that person your father.
i miss him but the suffeeing has surpassed the threshold so now only i can feel devasteted.
i wann cry out loud ..i wanna have rhe moment of ourburst .beong so away from family and frends ..only i could do was lye down and cry till someone notices ...alas no one did .
i need a shoulder to cry a voice that can console me .
remind me of my father ..
i was just thinking if thats the case with me ..how my mom is holding up ...its hard to be thwre for someone on the call .
nyways life has to move on ...
trrying hard to ......
miss u dad ...hope you are looking out for us ...

hostel

i promised  sakhu that we wont cry till december , bcoz that was a pact never cry until somone der is to cnsole.
sorry sakhu m breaking that promise .its about today n i cant hold down my tears for nine months from now .
no one is there to share .ithe kuni samjavayala nahiye javal gheun shant karnar pan nahiye . mhanin hostel che divas jast athavta
zoptana kunitari thopataych agadi balish vatel pan tyat je samdhan ani security asaychi na mala vatat nahi ti kuthe milel.
tel lavnyapasun te angai ganyaparyant sagalach...
kunachya tari khandyavar dok thevun mansokt radun ghyaych ..mhanje pudhchya kahi divasansathi chinta nahi.
installments madhech jagaycho .
bhandaycho te pan ekmekansathi ...kunachi tar javlik harvayla lagali ki possessive vhaych ani mg chidchid . kkiti sadhi bhandan hoti . ata tyachahi kautuk vataty karan  life itak materialistic zalay na ki emotions kadhi kadhi gahan taklyasarkhe vatatat.
almost everyone is going through a rough phase  thw people we could remeber for support in this tough times are te real friends .
 never let them go bcoz of stupid issues .
 u can always get back the pride and the ego but never the friends......
luv u guys