She stopped suddenly unknowingly.
His gaze met hers and as if the lighting had struck her she was dumbfounded ,couldn't move.
After a moment , which felt like a gazillion minutes she turned 180 degrees , heart ponding like crazy and sudden feel of pain got her stuck . Her legs didn't seem to move , She wanted to go anywhere but in that restaurant.
That was strange in the city full of restaurants how on earth did his team member chose the same one that he was going to be in .
She had anticipated the probability of happening that someday, but not today.
It was already 1 pm when she got out of the car , so hungry and to her dismay no reservations had been made. "I have to take charge, as always " She told her teammates.
While walking towards the front door she remembered the last time she was there, with him, with his friends . Things were so better then . It reminded of him .
And when she walked near the door , she couldn't believe the odds of seeing him at the same time she was reminiscing the memory.
Thousands of emotions flooded her mind. As she ran away from the door back to the car , yelling at the teammates that they have to find another place. Giving the bullshit reason of the wait times , she convinced them to drive away.
She could not stand to be there, at the same time she felt she handled the situation so poorly.
She felt a rush to go inside and talk to him.
Say hi , ask him how he has been , say anything , at least make an attempt to feel that you know him, you were friends someday , more than that . But a sudden thought eclipsed her , what if he doesn't look at you , what if he totally ignores you .What if he never saw you and maybe thats better this way.
Her train of though were broken when the discussion erode in the car for replacement place.
The car was standing near the door now, her hands clutched to the door not paying attention to the chaos inside.
She was trying to deal with her own.
She wanted to take that risk , she wanted to go and talk to him facets face, Its been more than a year they met , spoke. Its been 4 months for the last email send which she never got the reply.
She remembered his eyes. So warm and so expressive, the image of that crushed her.
She cursed herself as always. She drowned in the guilt, didn't speak a word till they reach the other restaurant. She lost her appetite and wanted just go back . "Msg him at least" her mind kept telling her .
The wounds were still young , the terms were never clear.
All she knew was that she should have talked to him.
Clueless she turned towards her mobile , opened his last email and cried again.
She turned towards her cup of back coffee and turned the page 119 of A game of thrones , his memories still scrolling through her mind , thinking how he would have loved to discuss about these books.
She murmured "Alas!! I am missing the best part"
