you will never have an idea whats coming your way ..
I don't mean to scare anyone out of this blog but these are the thoughts i am keeping in since i was a child ..and life is harsh and just think before you judge ..
Being molested over years and absolutely terrified by the physical harassment that happened over the period of time, i never could say or write anything about how i feel about rapes and the tortures after that .
I am still shivering after watching anurag kashyap's "That day after every day"
There are so many things going on my mind right now that its hard to put them in word sequentially ..
where should i begin , from the thousands of cases i have heard and read in news papers or to the deep and cold experiences my friends shared with me ...
If you are a boy reading this you would never know how deeply scared every girl is for the same treacherous thing that may or may not happen with them in this life, specially if you are from India.
How the girls suffer everyday with the touching, accidental falling and many more tings tat simply disgust me when even thinking of writing them down .
Rapes are the gigantic version of all those minor teases we go through almost every day.
Do you know why there is always a special compartment for ladies in local train or special seats reserved in the bus, to "so called " protect them from the hazards ... and people think why always girls have these advantages .. there are lots of reasons and trust me they aint good..
I am not giving solutions or discussing what a woman should or shouldn't do or matter of fact "wear".
Many programs like "Satyamev Jayate" or short films like this has been made saying you are the woman you have the power and you should fight for that .Or even the stupid things going on in India that say "Bhaiyya " to the rapist and he will just let you go ... WTF
I really want to just say it out loud, i am scared to go back in India as i can see how degrading a girls life can be. Simplest solutions would be don't use public transport get your own vehicle , get a bike , get a car , get a security system and even get a bodyguard still there is pretty good chance of one of those things happening.
I hated men all my life bcoz of such experiences specially my teachers, illiterate and smelling dirty village people travelling in buses, the cleaning guy from infosys, the passerby on local train station , or even let it be one the relative.
There were also good examples but the hatred came from the genuine fear that i had.
you know what i am no "Zashichi rani " or even i don't have guts to stand for myself .. ya that's true and i am really ashamed of that fact..
I should have raised my voice when my maths teacher molested our whole class and no one said anything and suffered from the continuous physical harassment almost for 2 years.
I should have told someone, but i knew know one would understand i was afraid of less marks that i would get if i say anything. I was so stupid.
But nothing changed till i came to Pune and the Malvadi bus crowd became unbearable to bear even in the daylight.
I started retaliating to the nuisances , but they were like dogs's tail and can be never straightened.
Worst was the case when the cleaning guy pretending to be HR molested me in the Huge and great campus of mysore Infy as he trapped me at the fire exists and blackmailed me saying he would expel me from Infy and then i would never get a job anywhere .
I had slapped a man before in the bus but this was not the same case , i ran away straight to authority and told them everything he said , he got fired from his job and i realized that if you face the fear you may get a good way out if it.
No such case has happened after that, but the memories of helplessness are still there.
I love US for the one reason that you can get drunk without worrying about getting raped or so ..
At least i would suggest my friends, if you are suffering from any of such things, please consult someone , they may not help you but you would feel better and tell your friends to do so .
Coz it may be your sister or friend as innocent that they would never make same mistakes as everyone of us did some point in our life.
I really think, if my mom or my sis or even my dad , however awkward that be, would have warned me about such dangers and a way to stay away of face them , things would have been better... definitely
I know this is not what i usually write, for what its worth i am feeling good to share...
Help will always be at the corner, just yell for it ....
http://www.filmycurry.com/that-day-after-everyday-a-short-film/
